Very Nua

Its the Christmas week and im feeling very nua....lazy lor, dont want to go to class....skool starting soon liaoz....received some really nice presents and cards tis year....Thanks to all who sent and gave me....can't wait to go back to white sands primary again.....new batch of students and new challenges, hope my old students will come and visit me....miss them....ahh the new year is coming....

Christmas Eve

Had a wonderful day with my mum today! went for buffet lunch(my treat) with her and the food was great. Shopped the whole of Orchard, what a good time with her!. Christmas should be spent with family, Happy holidays everyone! Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

Christmas Week....

yay the break is round the corner.....! haha happy....sooo happy......no guitar for three days...tis weekend no classes....yay....christmas eve and christmas off.....can do my stuff....can go and play...can sleep until 2 also no one will care.....wish i had more breaks.....better not waste tis weekend....yay Break!

Finally bought a sweater

Okayz i cant seem to remind myself to bring an umbrella everytime i go out, so i bought myself a sweater. It is a Fender sweater, black, witha hood. Went to Peninsula today and sent the pedals for repair, how long have i been procrastinating abt it? Well I finally got it done today! Got some guitar hooks as well so that i can hang up my guitars. and got the syllabus for terrence. Going to his place later for lesson, and after that its Kampong Kembangan. So yeah its an easy day for me, Im winding down for xmas. Haha, meeting Weishi and Eng Sheng for dinner this Friday. Boy, Havent seen them in ages. Haha at least my students still remember me. Well, hope this weekend will be good and fun, cant wait for the break man.

Rain.....Urgggh

hate rainy days, esp when im carrying my guitar.....i look like something the dog brought home from the garbage dump....! Just finished my class at Yicha.....kinda fun, cos its classical.....which brings me back to the point that i should be playing more classical....

Im halfway in between classes, feeling super lethargic, and super tired, but hey its sunday....so i guess its better....

My love affair with dogs.....or anything to do with dogs.....

Looking dumb at someone's wedding.....

Photos

4th birthday again......i still have that football..

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Lifeguarding days at chinese swimming club.....blond hair kinda fat.....

Photos

This is me with my grandma and aunt.....i think i was 20 yrs old

Photos of the past

I think tis was my 4th birthday....

Foxboro makes me Happy

The Hot Tubs makes me Happy! reminds me of my days when I still had my CD player and listening to Dookie......Green day is back, can't wait for the new album......totally screwed up schedule, hey but im feeling happy....haha....weird mood swings, some days im extremely sad and on some days, im just over the moon.....should I get the new G'Nroses CD? give me some ideas man.....ahhhh...just buy it....

Good Morning

Went to the Guitar Competition Heats this morning...the standard was super high lor....i looked at myself and i feel pathetic....my standard can't be as high or even close to the competitors. This gives me a target to meet for the next two years, practice and practice lor, wish i can join the competition in two years time. I need to have a goal, a target to set.....a dream to achieve.

What a Morning!

Had to rush all the way down to Tampines North tis morning cos there was an open house...spent 15 min there and then took a cab to Kembangan.....2 CCs in the space of an hour....Im not Superman lah.....Then had two private classes at Meyer Road.....Rosie made my day today.....What a good lesson! Yicha Music called me up at like 12.30am last nite to find out whether I was available to teach at their music school. Of cos I said yes, so my first student there is next Sunday, after Kembangan. Getting back into music schools has its ups and downs. The good part is that u are stationed at the same place for like quite a few hours and just teach. The bad part is that if the student doesnt turn up, u have to make up for it another day. Well, the more assignments, the better.

This coming week is a super packed week. Cmon Im not even taking Hari Raya off lor. But hey, teaching comes first and I will waste my time even if its an off day, I had one tis week, so another one will do me no good.

Teaching Brenda, Audrey and Hugo tmr, so its easy classes. Better buy some local food for Brenda, I guess she wants to taste some local food. Should i catch a movie in between classes tmr. Better not go to town. Can't stand crowds nowadays, gives me a headache! Might as well just go to starbucks and get coffee and finish reading the Khaled Hosseini book. Turning out to be very interesting and im getting hooked. Ahh enough for today, seeya guys around.

Too many Classes

Too many classes to handle today.....major day cos its saturday.....I wanna break for Christmas and I wanna go enjoy myself....Should i redye my hair again....? Better not cos school is starting soon and I dont want to chased out of the front gate....

Numb

Feeling sick and numb today.....Listening to the Linkin Park song last nite, Shadow of the Day....just such a nice song......woke up with a cold.....last nite was kinda cold....numb as in not feeling anything and just wishing that life can be simpler...less noise, more peace and hopefully more motivation....My family sometimes can be quite noisy, justa family of thinkers....why cant everyone just live in peace and just be happy, always griping about how unlucky and down they are, feeling the world is coming to an end....it made me into who i am, exceptionally pessimistic.

If the family situation isnt good, then it makes my day harder to pass by...I just have to handle classes in a more positive manner....i dont want to be pessimistic anymore, looking down at myself all the time, looking back at all the missed chances and regretting, my life needs a direction and maybe a little more stability.

The motivation I felt a few days ago is gone. I want more time to do the things i want and not to worry about money and earning money and trying to be a good person.

I just feel that life can be better. I dont want to sacrifice anymore. I dont want people to tell me what's rite and what's wrong and that Im still lousy and irresponsible and havent changed for the better....I want to feel rite about myself and that Im slwly making a mark in life.....I want people to understand that tis is who I am....i am changing for the better....

Alot of who i am is how i think of myself.....most of the time i look happy, but im just worried inside.....and regretting what has passed and. I made a lot of mistakes in life and I wasted a lot of time. I look down at myself all the time....that I am going to spend the rest of my life hating myself and questioning whatever i do....

Long Nite

Had a long nite talking to Reggie last nite....think I slept at like 2.30...It was a good talk....and yes, i told her of my feelings for her last nite, kinda not at the rite time as she was upset about something.... I do think of her when I go about my daily work, but hey I know where my line is, and she is definately going to be only my good friend.... she came into my life suddenly, completely turned things around in like two months, and yes, I'm in love with her....but yeah, things are not going to happen and yeah...sometimes i dont know what to say...

Well, I guess she is fun to be with, nice to talk to and totally understanding....


Ahh...I better shut up rite now....